Where Have I Been?

Needless to say, this week has been a bit of a rollercoaster.  

For the past month or so I have not been feeling like myself. Sluggish, tired, I haven't been hungry (SHOCKER) and I have had to force myself to go out with my friends or boyfriend.  I knew this behavior was off, but I couldn't pinpoint exactly what was wrong with me.  I thought it could be stress, or a combination of other things that had been on my mind.  

Last Sunday, I couldn't keep any food down. I was struggling to eat simple things like mashed potatoes, yogurt, and fruit. I wasn't stomaching food that I have loved for years. I also realized that I had lost 6 pounds in one week.  Keeping my weight stagnant has never been a problem for me, so I finally gave in and had a friend take me to the hospital.

After a series of tests and talking with what felt like 10 doctors, I was diagnosed with a form of Crohn's Colitis.  I had heard of Crohn's Disease before, but had never even heard of this "colitis" thing.  It's an autoimmune disorder that causes your intestines to think nearly everything you eat is posing a threat to your health. Basically, my body was gearing up for this fight that didn't exist, and had been flaring up for months.  

What surprised me most about this diagnosis is how many people actually have it. After I found out what was wrong, I had a steady stream of messages on my phone and Facebook from people saying that they've this for "X" amount of years and they've managed to head into remission quickly and lead normal lives.  What was tricky for me to understand was how this disease was so common and how few people talk about it.  

This is not a particularly flattering or glamorous subject, but I think this should be discussed. I don't think anyone should ever feel embarrassed about hiding a disease from someone because it's just "not talked about."  We should start these conversations and start making noise!  Taking charge of your health and owning up to something that you suffer from is not something anyone should be embarrassed about.

The next few months will be difficult.  The doctor told me that it takes a few months for your body to head into remission after something like this happens to you.  It's going to be an upward battle for a little while, but I have so appreciated the kind words and support from across the spectrum.  If anything, situations like this make you very appreciative of the type of people you surround yourself with. I'm blessed beyond belief.  

Have a great week,

Lizzy